It's Been a While...

It's been a long time since I've actually posted anything... Back in July I was having a hard time adjusting to all the shifted energies including us humans. After the end of of December of 2016, everyone's energy was running rapid. Basically making it harder for me to work and live like I'd been or years after gaining control and dealing with energy. And to top it all off we have had super moons and solar eclipses. Stuff like that alone kill a person who can read energy. At some point it got so bad I couldn't handle a group of people. 

But the entire year was me trying to gain control again and I've gotten better with dealing with energies. I left my old job and went to a place that sent me into a spiral. But I saw this coming, I read for the rest of the year to see how it'd be. And turns out it is correct for the most part. Back in November I found something like love, I made a connection with someone that I read would come. Of course I couldn't read right from left so it was so confused. A week before I read, and love came. It only lasted a week because I was spot on with his emotional state. Some people just can't handle the truth I suppose. We ended up saying our goodbyes in a not too friendly way and we left it at that... I wish I could say that it's taken over a month to remove the connection I made with him. I'd feel his emotions. He didn't know what he wanted and he is such an angry person. I'd get so angry I'd accidentally lash out at people. I'm a lot better now though so that's a plus.

My abilities are a lot stronger now, I found I could read without using my cards. I can 'see' things from you. I'll get weird images or not images if that makes sense. I have to thank my newest friend for having me do something I'd never done before. I can almost accurately read someone without really putting much effort if I connect to them fast enough. Although I sometimes think I'm going mad if I'm being one-hundred percent honest. Although I can say the energy and feelings I get from my new friends I can't help but say it's not true. It's conflicting with my belief system. I do play with the idea a lot with interactions... I mean I'm used to it with a few other friends as well. It's just too hard to say if it's true or not. You know?  

Anyways, that's where I currently am right this second. Abilities wise at least. I hope I still have some readers to see this, or don't either way I have my outlet. And I'm perfectly okay with sharing some of my madness.

Training Trance

I know it's been a hot minute since I'd posted on the blog, it's about time I did. Last time was extreme and I still don't have answers for it honestly. I've been working on my business as I can though. I'm even going to be making some pendulum board stuff, so I can actually talk to them and help them out without actually seeing them. So this should be fun!

So first time practice wet really well, we actually got somewhere. It wasn't perfect as it was mainly my face, arms, and legs. But mostly my face. I stopped after about 20 minutes. My mouth was super dry and I had a bump on the roof of my mouth right behind the back of my front teeth. Probably due to the dry mouth. as there is a small barely noticeable bump. It felt much bigger, everything went back to normal. I was of course working my ass off to get out of trance state since at the time I was open still. 

Finally working out of it I'd been so tired I passed out an hour or so later. This was on Monday, around 3 or 4 am. I was going to practice Sunday but it'd so happened to be Monday when I did.

It's now Friday, same time 4:42 that I am writing this. About 15 or s minutes prior I was attempting to reopen myself. I was unable to, not focused on getting in a trance. I suspect it was lack of release of old energy. I thought I did a good job in the bath. I felt as good as I would after a cry session. Then it happened... I dropped my amethyst cluster, which broke into a smaller half and a slightly bigger. Shards were everywhere, I did the best I could to save the bigger shards-- throwing away the sharp tiny shards. 

I was recording my second attempt, after nothing was happening I decided to stop it and go for my pendulum. Which if you didn't know this I use candles to help light up the area around me for the camera to pick up my face. Spilled when I went for the pendulum and my camera turned off. Going back to the cam after cleaning up a little of my wax issue I gave up. And decided to pick up the shards and halfs, pendulum included talking to the spirit friend in my room. We decided tomorrow (Saturday most likely the same as the last two sessions) we'd try again. I have video proof of each session, and the pictures of the shards. To prove a little of the situation, I hope I can get my mediumship down soon. I really want to get a handle on this!

You'll find most of the stuff I post about normal paranormal on my Facebook and Instagram.

What The Actual Hell?

I don't know if I told you about the shooting star experience. But I thin this might be correlated to what I just experienced over the last few weeks.

Honestly, I'm shook. I have no idea how to even explain what I'm going to talk about, and it sure as hell won't be long. Since there have only been instances, freaking weird! I'm so confused, I feel like maybe I'm going a tad crazy. Do you ever just see something and think "Holy cow, am I nutso?!" well that's how I feel. Despite having similar experiences with others in the area.

Okay so basically I think I seen a UFO, now bare with me, this is crazy for me. I thought I might have had something similar since a "star" followed me back to my house when I was 17 almost 18 for sneaking out. Might have been my mind, Who knows. ANYWAYS, I was in the car with a good friend of mine, someone who used to be my best friend. And as we were driving down 57 (A highway in my area). I saw what looked like a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig ass plane. I wrote it off as that, at first. However, upon further observation it just didn't seem like a characteristic of a plane. Though it was raining, but not too heavily. The lights were on the back and just too bright, I don't know, maybe they are changing planes, but the ones that fly by my own home looked nothing like this one. Mine have blinking blue/red lights, that when you take photos the lights look green. And make EXTREMELY loud ass noises. This one was silent and had no blinking lights.

So as I'm staring I notice a few seconds of staring it does this thing where it completely fades away. Now let me just note that there is no big clouds and it wasn't one of those fading into clouds kind of fade. I mean the lights faded VERY fast and that huge plane I saw, gone. I looked around for the outline since the street we were on is heavily lit. It was just not there anymore. I don't know. I just don't. 

This actually makes some weird sense, a few weeks back I was with my best friend and his friends. We were all in the car going down the SAME street, in the same area as where I saw the plane. I'd only just shut my eyes, I wasn't feeling good at that moment. I thought I saw a HUGE light cover the entire area? Like one of those MIB flashes. But bigger. I'd written that off as well, just only 5 seconds later of writing it off, my best friend notes that he'd seen it. And asked if any of us saw. I said yes immediately and so did the other two. We wrote it off as something strange and talked about how it reminded us of MIB. And left it at that.

Maybe 5 or 10 minutes goes by of driving, and we see it again! But near my house, no not on it or in the same street, but like fairly freaking close. We noted that weird flash, just me and my best friend this time. I don't know guys, I might be going off my rocker because I'm into the unknown.... But this is something I can't explain.

Not being believed can be a pain, lemme just say this now...

A few days ago I had an experience where I was just playing on my computer. My phone turned on and off. I got a little freaked then allowed the guy who was playing to play. I assume it's the man from my last blog post-- I call him Ryan. That's just what popped up when I asked several times for the name. Anyways, I decided to test it out to be 100% sure that it wasn't a malfunction. I asked what I can only guess is Ryan, if he could type into my keyboard. And he tried, he didn't type anything but my keyboard bounced up and down at different times. Even stayed on when he turn the phone back on from sleep mode. 

Finally I gave up on the whole typing thing when I started to get the chills running through my body. Usually signifying that this WAS INDEED happening. And they continued to stay through the remainder of my night. I tried a few times to record it from a tablet I own, and Ryan is a shy little shit let me tell you because he only did it once in ALL of the three videos I made prior. The last video,(number four) was full on interaction. I can post all three videos of my attempts. But the one I posted was number four despite the way it looks. It wasn't a malfunction on my phone. It was Ryan. (Or so I think it was him, he's te only other spirit I've come into contact with since the whole crazy time months ago.

Check my Facebook, if you want to see the video. My dog stayed with me when I was going to bed, she was going mad, staring into space. And getting anxious would NOT go to sleep despite many other times being able to sleep. Our house is haunted, but not in a bad way. Normally don't mess with us. Unless they're new and are dicks. It's up to you whether you agree with me or not. Believe what you will, this happened. And I know it did.

The Man At Work.

So, there is this guy. Not just any guy, but this guy is strange. Now I know you are saying oh shuttup, there are guys like that EVERYWHERE. And you'd be right-- to a point. My newest job has a strange person there who likes to just watch you do things. I didn't notice at all until recently when I put myself in the heart of all that energy.

Now mind you I'd been going to this place for years, never once have I sensed a man there before. Or any spirit in general. Maybe it's because I numbed myself to some of the shit there or maybe I just blocked it out very well. Who knows, there can be a billion reasons as to why I never noticed before. I don't really know much about the guy honestly...

But from what I've noticed so far, there are sensitive people there, they can sense him. Maybe they don't realize it, but he wants some sort of attention. Just not a whole lot. Not a bad guy as far as I'm concerned, since nothing bad has happened to me there. He does like to hang around me though since I've started seeing him more often. Not a bad thing, but between blocking human emotions/human physical bs. It's hard to even really have spirit interaction. Not only that but I work myself to the bone physically, whilst trying to block things out mentally.

This isn't going to be hella long or anything. But it will be the marker point for documentation on all things that go on at work. So far I've encountered sensitives, my group particularly. I call them sensitives because there isn't a term I can make for them since I've only worked there three weeks. But in that time I've managed to over work myself, meet people similar to me, and there is a guy there that likes to see what's going on. After all, we are invading his living space. Well I do anyways.

That's all I've got for now on the topic...

BUT, recently my friends guide and I get along great. We could be best friends if there wasn't a physical and non physical barrier. I have trouble seeing them and hearing them. but I do have a sort of good sense spirit wise. Just not as great. It's a work in progress as of now, but I hope I get at the level needed to hangout with her. She also needs my help emotionally so the only time we do talk is through my guy friend. Which sucks because we talk about deep shit that doesn't so much need a third party.

Oh well I suppose. Things will get better for me eventually. Til then I'm off to compile or see if I have a new big story. Not always going to be attacks, but hey you never know. Amirite? :)

Am I a cartoon character?

I think as a first post this is going to be something worth reading. Or well I hope, I still can’t believe it happened, I feel like I’m a comic book character. Anyways… A lot of weird things have been happening lately. After I quit my job back in July, I have been pretty closed off from my abilities. At first it was small things, feeling people (no perve) and their energy then spirits started to bug me and my mother a lot more. A friend of mine had her wedding recently, I was a brides maid. She had me over at her house for her bach party, I got drunk and then started feeling like someone was watching me waaaaay late into the night when it was just three or four of us.

I shrugged it off being that I was drunk and shit. But after everyone went to go to bed I passed out maybe half an hour later not feeling tired at all. I wake up out of no where and see a pair of eyes floting towards me flying close to the ceiling. I flipped and sent a text to my boyfriend, freaking out on him. He ended up going to bed– I didn’t sleep until four a.m. The next day when I woke up, everyone left, so I decided to clean. My friend has these decorations hanging up on one of her archways and one of them fell right after I had just finished cleaning. The tape was fine and they stayed up for however long she had them up there for. Mind you I put up with some buuuuulllshit during those three days. I call those horrid days The Three Days Of Hell. I told my friend about the things that happened and she said the complex she’s in is haunted with mischievious spirits. It’d make sense since I wasn’t hurt or anything negative.

I think it attached itself to me, because days after I’d have shit moved around… Not that it bothers me now. Now for my most recent experience, it was maybe almost a week ago, I wanted to watch this live stream from YouTube. They’re called LiveScifi, one of the guys was doing an EVP sess while another person doing EVP’s went to the bathroom. It felt like she was in there forever and it was a weird night in general.

However, when this guy did the EVP I’d just turned off my lights and crawled into bed to build the ambience. I put my hand on my amethyst cluster, the streams screen froze in place almost immediately. But the audio was still going and I swear to god I could hear a growly – grouchy sounding voice either talking to him in the recorder. Or dare I say it, talking to me, it felt like it was talking to me directly. It was crazy, I am still thinking I’m crazy.  The screen was still frozen and it stayed that way for two minutes ’til I refreshed the entire page. Audio was still going those two minutes. After I refreshed it, went back to normal. I tried talking in the chat about it and nobody answered me. So either it never happened or the chat moved too fast. Still freaks me out, I didn’t hear the same thing on the recorder when he plaid it back.

Eventually I passed out and woke up out of a dead sleep to see eyes and a partial head looking at me through a window farthest from me. I saw it through the mirror facing me and my windows. The spirit was outside not inside I should note. All I could do at that point was say, “I see you, I see you!” it moved away from my furthest window to the window right next to me. Slowly it tapped signalling that it/he was moving closer to me. So I shut my window after I heard the last tap right next to me. I didn’t see it when it backed away but I could feel it’s presence.

Ever since last week now the streams do that to me they freeze in place for two or three seconds. It feels weird talking about this on a blog. I have countless other stories… Buuuut I don’t think I’ll be displaying old news.

I'll now be posting in order after this.

Original Date: 09/23/2016

I Don't Understand.

I’m finding it terribly hard to understand things lately. And to be honest I’m not sure I want to. Don’t get me wrong, I know there are things in this world that are hard to explain.

Recently… My family and I were attacked by an entity. I never thought I’d meet one, I have a handle on my shit. He was attracted by my mother, and she’s highly psychic but doesn’t know what to do with her abilities. He’d been waking her up for almost a month or two. I dropped it as my mom would figure out how to remove him.

It not being my problem and what not– (I know, I know. I’m a selfish cunt hush.) however. I wasn’t expecting him to come to me at all. And the first time I woke up in the dead of night and saw him. I screamed fucking loud, I don’t feel bad. The guy was like 7 feet tall and I could see part of his face. (Mind you I’m just starting to be able to connect with spirits and the like.)

Well, my family didn’t know I was a tarot reader til recent. I mean they knew I owned the cards, but didn’t know what I was about or doing. So the next morning or so, my mother’s boyfriend confronts me about work. And I told him– to take this short he pretty much said I had to cut my shit because it was MY fault this incubus was haunting my mother. Which is a lie, he attached himself to her, I hadn’t anything to do with it. I didn’t stop because reading is my life. And I know I’m not doing anything wrong but helping others. Religious people take things too far me thinks… Anywho– the next day after that I woke up sometime early in the morning I’m not sure what time but I know it was just before sunset.

I see these eyes, staring at me from my door way. I screamed a little but it wasn’t so loud it was like a really loud gasp.(Scrasp hue)  But my house is small enough you hear everything. He disappears and I go back to sleep. This guy was so persistent in waking me up. He woke me up shortly after, this time I was like “Go away.” I was pretty pissed. I think he was trying to rape and posess me at one point because I kept waking up to jolts of energy on different parts of my body but I felt so tired I didn’t do anything about it. I just ended up passing back out each time. Finally, it was when I felt pain near my private area and it felt a little weird. That I woke up. But didn’t know what to do about it, so I went back to sleep. Basically the entire night I was woken up a lot. I had to sleep with amy brightest lamp and my night-light. Yes, twenty and sleeping with a night-light. Sue me.

I was so scared and angry at the same time. After that I wasn’t to be messed with, because I stayed up for like two days straight protecting my family and blocking him out of my thoughts. He wanted to do bad things to us. I can’t stress that enough. Basically I had to spend two weeks trying to clear my name and take the blame because the house was basically calling me a witch and that I did this. Still kinda hurts to think about it still. Nobody trusted me enough to help them. I’ve just been giving protection things from different sites I use. I really even resorted to wicca, which isn’t bad it’s doing the job. Pretty well I think. Anyways– the guy, I later found out his name is Pan– but not really Pan, just like a short name I suppose?

My friend pretty much came to help, and we’ve never been better. Pan really strengthened our bond a little. He let Pan posess him, and Pan started to do things to him. And him being into dark shit. Black Magick, really didn’t help, my friend is weak mind and body so you can imagine what he was trying with him. I know all of this sounds fake. But even now I worry for my loved ones. I’m constantly on guard, and tbh it’s not terrible but it’s really draining. I’m not sure how this will end… Lets just hope he doesn’t come back. It’s been a long month. This obviously isn’t everything, but it’s enough for you to get the idea.

Original Date: 11/07/2016

My Life is CRAZY.

I know this is going to be short, just for the fact that there isn’t much to say right now. What I can say, is my life is getting interesting, scary, boring, and various other things. It’s like I’m shedding the old and coming with the new. I may not have had so much happen to me but it has been far more active.

The fact of the matter is, this is me, this is how I see life. Everyone has their own perceptions of what is and what isn’t. There is no solid truth because there is all kinds of truths. Recently, maybe a few weeks back I can’t really recall– I was attacked by something, left the biggest hand print on my face. I think I was slapped now that I think about it. The dryness and not really sting but sorta like that reminds me of a slap that hit really hard.

I didn’t even know about it until I looked in the mirror– I’m vain as hell (oh well). I do know that when I woke up the second time after having some serious dream/maybe real experience, that I thought I might have cried or something because of the fact that it felt funny on one side. It was then that I’d seen the huge hand print red as hell. Scared the heck out of me. The fingers were kinda guy like because of how big they were. (I’d already tried to rationalize that I might have pressed my hand on my face hard in my sleep. But of course my fingers are much smaller than the print.)

I sent my friend and boyfriend pictures of my face, both were shocked. I hadn’t mentioned this in the beginning, but before the print and weird dream thing I saw some guy hovering over me he was kinda heavy set it looked like. Close to my friend’s body type. So I basically told him to fuck off and go away since I was tired. I made sure to ask my friend immediately after I saw the print then sent him the photos. I don’t know if he ever found out what happened, but I’m sure as hell curious. I can’t help but feel he holds far too much back from me. It’s annoying, but then again I can’t control what he does.

The dream thing though, that had to be the weirdest of the entire time. I woke up again after the whole hovering over my body thing. To my room full of people, like my entire room had someone watching me. It was both unsettling and freaked the shit out of me. I know that when I finally woke up I was very unhinged and panicky.  Minus the deranged part. I don’t usually show how I feel when I’m scared or anything like that, it’s all mostly internal unless it’s a fun kind of scared such as jump scares from a game. But when I’m really scared and it’s not a cool situation it’s inside and I deal with it accordingly.

This blog is only for my experiences, so you won’t see me talking about anything else but my supernatural stuff. I can’t complain, I wanted more eye openers– pun not intended. I want more crazy stuff to happen to me. I want to learn how to deal with more things like this. If you want to see the pictures, I posted them to my Twitter. That’s the direct link to the post.

Original Date: 11/17/2016